Does anyone else feel this way about religion as I do?

As far-fetched, well-rounded but a paradox in size religion is I still question my beliefs on a self-morality point of view. I was brought up as a Christian, and I'm not trying to disrespect anyone's beliefs because I'm a very open-minded person, but it's umed we go to hell if we don't believe a certain way regardless of what we do and how we are as human beings. It seems like someone least-christian has the upper-hand over someone who's not but lives life in a "Godly-matter"(no pun intended) whether or not you actually believe in God. Myself believes in a higher being but the strict morals don't settle in me the right way. Why should someone suffer for being a all around good person but isn't a certain religion? That's why it seems like there's a God but, in no disrespect again only solely from my beliefs, the dogmas that are supposedly a God-intervened are fictitious in one way or another(once again not trying to bash anyone's belief because I'm respectful person)? But I'm not here to solidly conclude my belief system either, I'm just curious and still trying to find myself.